There are many days where I sit and bide my time. I can’t make things move faster, nor can get things to happen without a constant effort. Many days pass, weary in the heat, just trying to keep myself motivated. I need to constantly look for that next piece that will bring the next step in this process a bit closer.I knew this would not be easy. I did not know it would be so difficult. Butt, I do enjoy that Butt is a name here and you see it everwhere. Yes, I am still 5 years old.